I have been dealing with a little bit of anxiety the past few days... I have had a lot on my plate lately and I have been guilty of not taking great care of myself. I took a day off yesterday and feel better today but I did a little bit of - I don't know what to call it - maybe damage - maybe retail therapy - at Target on Friday afternoon.
When the boys went down to take a nap, I told Jesse that I needed a little time to myself and just drove... I ended up at Target. I walked around aimlessly for a while and picked up a few things that I felt like I needed. I checked out and drove home feeling a tiny bit better. I bought a box of 100 calorie a pack mini Swedish fish at Target and decided to enjoy a few on the way home. I ate and thought about everything that I need to get done and when I finally stopped at a light, I looked down and saw that three mini Swedish fish bags were opened and empty. Mmm... that's funny. I only remember opening one bag.
I made it home and Jesse asked what I purchased. I opened the bag and pulled out the following items:
1) 3 bottles of red wine (I totally buy for the label) 2) 4 (don't worry - slave free/organic/fair trade certified) chocolate bars - they were on sale and I felt like I really needed them 3) A People Magazine 4) A box of 100 calorie mini Swedish Fish 5) $5.99 sunglasses 6) Pink slip on Converse for - get this - $7.48 7) Contact Solution
After going through the bag, I realized that I wasn't doing great... chocolate, wine, shoes and a People Magazine...
I am going to take better care of myself this week...
Oh - and in case you are wondering... I still have two bottles of wine left and took two chocolate bars to a friend's house to share. I did binge eat the Swedish Fish.